i saw des's blog and immediately went to fiona's blog. no doubt i still vividly rmb kenneth. those old days when i was online; seeing his messages; how he cheered me up when i was feeling down. in fact, ken is jus like an older brother towards me. i dunnoe y i'd say this.. but maybe b'cos i dun have any brothers. and surprising he was the one which could cheer me up (besides certain guys i've met) whenever my nick seems some kind of unhappiness. he would be there to talk to me and asked me about the prob i've faced. whenever the name of victoria sch is mentioned to me, i can onli recall mike and kenneth.. i thot to myself wondering y god have to be cruel and let all of us cried and miss him? and of cos, let him live this world when he's jus a mere teenager? but looking things in a different way, perphas it's a form of blessing in disguise for kenneth perphas a form of release for him. i dunnoe. i realli miss those times when we chat on msn. [if u guys thot he's like my bf/wad, it's not. he's my fren fren. and he died few years back :(] des, i dunnoe how to face u. so, i decided to blog instead. many times i wanted to sms u instead but i didnt noe wad to say so i gave up. i appreciate ur kindness and ur sms-es when i was feeling down and everything. u gave me advice and hold my fall each time when i was on sudidal. i doubt if i still can find "girl frens" who could care as much as how u did. now, i can offer u nothing but to cry wif u each time and to lend u my shoulder. thanks for everything u have been providing me =D http://img296.imageshack.us/img296/2284/p40sn.gif http://img296.imageshack.us/img296/1926/p83jz.gif those words which i wanted u to noe. hope u do. [click to c those pics]